to live somewhere else for sometime to be someone else for sometime to be a famous artist a writter a filmmaker a photographer a rockstar a superhero to be in the circus to be healthy to feel safe but free to make plans and grown up with someone but not really grown up never get old or wiser to be immortal... till I get tired to be more awake and less asleep to lay dowm on the grass in a sunny day to eat a whole chicken with my hands to earn money and spend it to travel in time to travel... a lot to live in a cyber future to play with paint and get my body covered with it to experience life and all it's possibilities to stop taking care of everyone and start being taken care of a bit to take more pictures to be more audacious to make my own clothes to have a new pet... or not to dry someone else's tears don't miss people but never forget them to run like crazy in an open field... screaming to do the subway scene from "Christianne F." to hold a hand and feel like you're holding the whole world to be able to change my name... even if I'll never really do that to change my hair and looks to count eyelashes to say forever... and mean it to shiver when listenning to a great songs to feel someone's skin shivering to see everything and still have many things to be seen to say everything and still have things to be said to stop wasting time thinking that I'm wasting time to loose control, sanity never to be perfect cause imperfection is what really makes things interesting